Hi, Karie!
I read your post last week, but only just now have had time to write you.
I'm no expert, but it sounds to me like you are doing great. Your baby is latching, your milk supply is INcreasing. (On my best day, I got 1 oz. total by the end of the day-- 2 oz. per pumping sounds great!)
My only advice (and again, I'm a real newbie with no baby yet) would be-- don't be too hard on yourself. You're tired... you've been sick... you're still adjusting to new baby and sleep deprivation...
I think you're doing great-- and it's wonderful that your little one doesn't have nipple confusion-- so even when you were taking meds that kept you from breastfeeding, hubby could step in and feed her. That's great!
I know what you mean about comparing yourself to yourself-- how you used to do it, could be doing it, etc.
But that was a year ago and you didn't have a teeny baby who came into your life quite quickly and whom you are still adjusting to.
Give yourself the grace you deserve. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />
Here is one of my favorite quotes. It's from Mark Twain and I think it is so profound:
"Comparison is the root of all discouragement."
Even comparison of yourself to yourself. All you can do is your best. And, as you know, it's about bonding to your little sweetie and giving her your best. If pumping more would be too much and make you crazy, you wouldn't be giving her your best 'cuz you'd be a crazy person and not a peaceful mama.
From where I stand, any woman who steps up to the plate and does adoptive breastfeeding --with soooo little advanced prep 'cuz of the time limitations-- any woman like that is my hero.
You're terrific, Karie!! Don't give up. And give yourself grace.
Blessings,
Heather