Thank you for your reply. We are in the middle of our homestudy and it will be March-April before we're on the registry/wait list. We're applying through social services and the process, though a positive experience for us, is long. I did think about beginning pumping but I had been feeling so depressed in general as well as discouraged about here we are 4 years since we began TTC, no child and not knowing how long more to actually getting a child I felt that beginning the pumping and having no child to give the milk to right now would bum me out even more. I was thinking I would just take a mental break and when I feel up to it I would begin the goat's rue and dom together. I don't want to give up on our plan to be able to give breastmilk but I need to seriously consider what is too much for me right now as well as what I can do to help induce lactation when I'm ready and maximize success as best as I can without compromising my own health. I hope that makes sense.