Joni,
I'm so sorry. You will be in my prayers.
I'm always amazed at how people have 9 months to prepare and then at the last moment decide that they want to parent. I realize emotions and all that come into the picture, but I think people should know that, and if they are unsure, then wait until the baby is born to try to pick an adoptive family. I know this sounds harsh, but it's so unfair to people like you who are waiting. I hope that precious little baby is well cared for.