A word of support for you. I am so sorry that this adoption fell through. If I could be where you were, I would give you a big hug. I don't understand why this adoption didn't work out, but I do know this, when the right little one comes along, and he/she is nestled in your arms, thankful that its mommy and daddy found him or her...this time of loss will be small, and forgotten. *hugs*